I can’t deal with Zionism from an emotional/moral/psychological standpoint and that’s been keeping me at a distance from my local Jewish community since they’re Zionists. If I lived in a bigger city then I might have alternatives to that but I’ve had no luck with job hunting in bigger cities so far due to the competition.

I know other people reconcile with that by leaving the Jewish community altogether and just becoming atheists/agnostics but I feel too attached to my culture to do that.

So I feel kind of stuck. Also guilty about it because I’ve had it drilled into my head too many times that “the Jewish community is like a family and we should remain a family and stick together even if we don’t always agree on everything” and that I’m not taking that adage to heart.